night owls

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would you believe me if i told you

you didn’t stick around to see the best of me?

don’t you wish you didn’t, betray me?

and now i’m set free.

how many times can i tell my friends

that i’ll never talk to you again?

i hate the way my mind bends.

am i better than i think i am?

you went off the deep end.

this is my revenge every morning i wake up

and i hope you went crazy.

now that you’ve reached the bottom of the shallow end

now i can see the bitterness burning in your eyes.

this is my revenge every morning i wake up

with my pockets full of sand and bottle caps.

how many times can i tell my friends

that i’ll never talk to you again?

i hate the way my mind bends.

am i better than i think i am?

We fill these empty glasses with stories

like we’re throwing them out to sea.

i’m standing at the edge of a jetty

and the water is rising to my knees.

the moon is pointed right at me.

i hate the way mother always asks about

all of my old friends like i know where they went.

where did go?

come home.

in this reckless state, two points, divide.

so i’ll, hop on the mass pike

there is not much like

waking up on a floor in boston.

and i always wondered how

you still lost your mind time after time.

i guess i thought we would forget

all those night you spent out past five fifteen 

kissing the boy with the tattoos who wasn’t me.

i guess, i’m no longer fatally yours.

so i suggest,

you stay away from connecticut.

i’m not looking back.

i chipped my tooth on the bottle

now she’ll never see me smile.

you could have loved who i used to be

‘til this ruined me.

i traded my best friend to fill an empty bed

that i still lie sleepless in.

i’m begging please don’t let me be me,

because i fucking hate myself, dearly.

i lost my best friend.

i lost everything.